Minding the Experience through meditation.

When I allow Self to be in the stillness of this moment, I can gently allow past experiences to flow into my present awareness.  And in the purity of this Now moment, I see how to utilize those past experiences for present expansion.  Then, the full knowing of the journey unfolds before me like a beautiful silk fan. The delicate layers opening to reveal the hidden beauty of a karmic cycle now completed! Ahhhh,  I breathe...
In that moment I AM suspended in time and in space...experiencing the bliss of surrendering to the Divinity of the unfolding.  A smile comes to my face and  I giggle, to think how emotionally swept away from the reality of All there is during that Experience in time.  Yes, I felt the despair, the loneliness, the pain, the sadness, the darkness of separation. And now I bring the same experience to fore and I feel the release, the giddiness, the joy, the clarity, the surrender of the enfolding within, the Oneness of everything within the experience. I feel the expansion.  And as I  open my eyes, the tears of gratitude stream down my face. The room sparkles with crystalline lights of Angelic presence, my breathe, my heartbeat fluid with that of the universe, my heart larger than me.  Duality, subsides and what is left is the light of All There Is..., an experience of Divinity. A perfect moment in life.

What does this mean? It means,  I came here to experience LIFE...all aspects of it, the dark and the light.  I agreed to forget who I was, separate myself from Who I AM.  I said, YES, to the walk,  the run, the skip on the journey back!  And along the way my path is littered-graciously with a myriad of possibilities and potential to experience LIFE through this Human Form, so that my God Source can observe what it is like for Self to experience what it is like to be GOD Dess...  Not just an omnipresent, consciousness Being in the great Void of nothing and All There Is...
But to Experience; in this delicious Human form the potential and possibilities of All There Is.
To Feel, breathe moving through my head, my throat, into my chest, expanding tummy and swooshing up in a powerful motion through my nostrils out beyond me to be received. Received by those beautiful green plants in front of me. Oh!; and look at their expression of my Self;... the variety, the beauty, the petals in all the colors and this blanket of green ness that is alive and wrapping itself around my feet. And the leaves on the trees are waving at me, saying look at us, look at us...look how we are expressing Divinity...Did you see that...it was a Bird a little tiny, bird standing still in the air, in front of me, looking at me, looking at it...was it humming? so little, so swift...there it is again...the flower with the beautiful red petals and yellow burst of love is feeding it!!   Hmmmmm, what is this I feel on my skin, so warm, so penetrating...it makes me feel like swirling, it's filling me up, radiating throughout...bring on the Breath...look up...so bright, so golden, so enormous...the Sun. I see you, i see you too.  Thank you for noticing me with your warmth and sustaining me with your energy and oooooooooo, how you sit against the expansiveness of this Big Blue sky and do you see, do you see the puffy white cotton balls of pillow gliding around you, oh my goodness they are everywhere!  And as I keep turning and looking, I see the majesty of big mountains, covered with green plant life and birds, all types and sizes singing and soaring in the blueness. And, the furry little and Big creatures all around, with big brown eyes, wiggly ears...coming over to marvel at me, marveling at them.  My ears hear their chatters, sending me thoughts of love and awareness of our combined presence.  My heart is beating in joy, as my eyes fall upon the liquidness of the sea, the smell, so many smells..how does it ripple there and not overflow, how does it come just to the tips of my toes and rush away again. I like this game we play, and as I walk into it, it pours self around me, through me, embracing me, we are merging into one...mmmmm, I breathe!  So much, so much extraordinary expression of my Self, of life, of joy, of love...
Flashing of crystalline lights again, remembering, knowing....clarity.   I breathe... this is all LOVE.  My eyes are open wider,  I see beyond these physical orbs in my head, I see millions of beautiful, unique, exotic, different, versions of Me...walking around, running, talking, moving, Being...  Can they see me too?  Can we see each other?, How on earth did we do this?, splinter our I AM presence into these billions of zillions of pieces, pieces we have yet to discover and still... we are connected, we are One.  Experiencing, Self, experiencing what it Feels like to Be GOD creating in pure LOVE. 
I Breath....ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh  Ommmmm,  I pray, may I stay here in this Blissful Clarity of Love, as  I continue my walk back Home.
love love
namaste
stacy