Minding the Experience through meditation.

When I allow Self to be in the stillness of this moment, I can gently allow past experiences to flow into my present awareness.  And in the purity of this Now moment, I see how to utilize those past experiences for present expansion.  Then, the full knowing of the journey unfolds before me like a beautiful silk fan. The delicate layers opening to reveal the hidden beauty of a karmic cycle now completed! Ahhhh,  I breathe...
In that moment I AM suspended in time and in space...experiencing the bliss of surrendering to the Divinity of the unfolding.  A smile comes to my face and  I giggle, to think how emotionally swept away from the reality of All there is during that Experience in time.  Yes, I felt the despair, the loneliness, the pain, the sadness, the darkness of separation. And now I bring the same experience to fore and I feel the release, the giddiness, the joy, the clarity, the surrender of the enfolding within, the Oneness of everything within the experience. I feel the expansion.  And as I  open my eyes, the tears of gratitude stream down my face. The room sparkles with crystalline lights of Angelic presence, my breathe, my heartbeat fluid with that of the universe, my heart larger than me.  Duality, subsides and what is left is the light of All There Is..., an experience of Divinity. A perfect moment in life.

What does this mean? It means,  I came here to experience LIFE...all aspects of it, the dark and the light.  I agreed to forget who I was, separate myself from Who I AM.  I said, YES, to the walk,  the run, the skip on the journey back!  And along the way my path is littered-graciously with a myriad of possibilities and potential to experience LIFE through this Human Form, so that my God Source can observe what it is like for Self to experience what it is like to be GOD Dess...  Not just an omnipresent, consciousness Being in the great Void of nothing and All There Is...
But to Experience; in this delicious Human form the potential and possibilities of All There Is.
To Feel, breathe moving through my head, my throat, into my chest, expanding tummy and swooshing up in a powerful motion through my nostrils out beyond me to be received. Received by those beautiful green plants in front of me. Oh!; and look at their expression of my Self;... the variety, the beauty, the petals in all the colors and this blanket of green ness that is alive and wrapping itself around my feet. And the leaves on the trees are waving at me, saying look at us, look at us...look how we are expressing Divinity...Did you see that...it was a Bird a little tiny, bird standing still in the air, in front of me, looking at me, looking at it...was it humming? so little, so swift...there it is again...the flower with the beautiful red petals and yellow burst of love is feeding it!!   Hmmmmm, what is this I feel on my skin, so warm, so penetrating...it makes me feel like swirling, it's filling me up, radiating throughout...bring on the Breath...look up...so bright, so golden, so enormous...the Sun. I see you, i see you too.  Thank you for noticing me with your warmth and sustaining me with your energy and oooooooooo, how you sit against the expansiveness of this Big Blue sky and do you see, do you see the puffy white cotton balls of pillow gliding around you, oh my goodness they are everywhere!  And as I keep turning and looking, I see the majesty of big mountains, covered with green plant life and birds, all types and sizes singing and soaring in the blueness. And, the furry little and Big creatures all around, with big brown eyes, wiggly ears...coming over to marvel at me, marveling at them.  My ears hear their chatters, sending me thoughts of love and awareness of our combined presence.  My heart is beating in joy, as my eyes fall upon the liquidness of the sea, the smell, so many smells..how does it ripple there and not overflow, how does it come just to the tips of my toes and rush away again. I like this game we play, and as I walk into it, it pours self around me, through me, embracing me, we are merging into one...mmmmm, I breathe!  So much, so much extraordinary expression of my Self, of life, of joy, of love...
Flashing of crystalline lights again, remembering, knowing....clarity.   I breathe... this is all LOVE.  My eyes are open wider,  I see beyond these physical orbs in my head, I see millions of beautiful, unique, exotic, different, versions of Me...walking around, running, talking, moving, Being...  Can they see me too?  Can we see each other?, How on earth did we do this?, splinter our I AM presence into these billions of zillions of pieces, pieces we have yet to discover and still... we are connected, we are One.  Experiencing, Self, experiencing what it Feels like to Be GOD creating in pure LOVE. 
I Breath....ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh  Ommmmm,  I pray, may I stay here in this Blissful Clarity of Love, as  I continue my walk back Home.
love love
namaste
stacy 

This Business of being Gentle with Self!

On Sunday past, I stayed behind for a prayer session with one of the lovely practioners at Agape Spiritual Community.  Interestingly, considering my very religious background that I literally ran screaming away from,  I find myself returning to this place of gathering.
I lovvvvvvvvvve Agape!  It has the Churchlessness of limiting doctrines, rules and regulations that scalp you and all your self esteem.  Replaced by some serious Conscious Awareness,.like wow..., energetic power streaming off the surfaces and appearing from the ether to invade every pore and shake it all out! 
So I stood in line, and watched beautiful light people sit amongst their personal "person of light". These lovely souls donating there time to sitting, listening and speaking about what was on your heart. And then they gathered your hands and sometimes your person, and petitioned the highest realms on your behalf.  The observing alone, was purifying, humbling, grounding...
Then it was my turn...
I know the angels led this woman to me, the synchronicities abounded.  Her eyes, the sparkling blue waters of Belize, her presence, angels manifested in form,  I felt at home.  We spoke, we shared, she petitioned all the forces of "All There IS"; and I felt the famaliar movement in my body, the energetic chills, the flush of heat, the stingy of tears in my eyes.  Here, this powerful reflection of light, shared her story, that was mirrored to mine... she smiled and said...Be easy, be gentle...be kind to yourself, Love yourself more, you are well on your path.  Sit still for a bit, listen to your intuition more, listen to others less :)...it's just the ego, raising itself up, losing it's hold, becoming your servant.

I had encountered this many times over the past few months.  The words of, Being Gentle and easy with one's self.
So harsh I am, slapping myself all over the place, you should do this, you could be that, don't say that , don't think this!  Stacy Girl, with love I forgive you and love thee...
And yet this inner source of who I AM, who YOU ARE,  Loves completely and unconditionally.  It never stings our/it's self-worth, punishes for a misstep, speaks harsh words in our/it's ears, abandons us/itself when we/it are less than pure light.  "Be easy girl, love self more"... it says repeatedly.  "Our love for you far exceeds what you in your present dimensionality could ever fathom at this time, yet this is where you are going. The source of all knows only of your perfection in the reflection of itself. It only sees your highest potential. Forgives you beyond the mistakes you percieve you make. It is in constant care and love of you.Because you are a part of All there is, a very precious, integral, important part, serving the unfolding of LIFE! This All Creative Force, can you never be seperated or lost from; and Never have you ever been".
As this message comes to me, in so many forms...often in a whisper in my ear...Be easy, you are loved, you are guided!
My breath steadies, my senses clear, my heart expands, my soul recieves and the flow is On!  At times I need daily reminders of this. I need to see and feel that I am surrounded by Spirit that is US ...to Infinity and Beyond!!!  Thank you spirit...for Agape!
It is apparent to me that in the minding of this path, Being Gentle with Self is at the top of the list.  I can do this, it feels so good and so effortless...  I wonder if I make it harder than it really is....
"Yes, sister girl, at times you do"!  But it's all good, part of journey to clarity.
So for this New Year...do your thing, keep stretching a bit more toward your full awakening, keep releasing the dross of that; that no longer serves.  Be diligent in your intentions, meditations and minding your thoughts (for we are manifesting at quickening light).  Be focused to your bursting creativity, self empowerment and that of others. Be selfless in your service to all, give more, allow more...be in peace, in joy, in fun, in fun, she prayed Have more fun!...be gentle...
"I am doing very well, I am on my path, I am listening to the whispers of my Higher Self Guiding my every step".
Bliss in this Gentleness
love love
stacy

Minding my Spiritual Path.

At 41, I have surrendered to the fact that I am a Wandering-Visionary Hermit.
Just writing this makes my heart swell with a sense of purpose...
which we keep searching for only to find that as we attain it at that Moment, it expand and splinters into many purposes...
according to the Webster dictionary, I am both
A : one that retires from society and lives in solitude especially for religious reasons : recluse
B : a spiced molasses cookie
some how at this present now, i really resonate with definition B.

I threw in the Visionary part! A: because I can and B: because it is.
Webster says: A : having or marked by foresight and imagination and of the nature of a vision : illusory b : incapable of being realized or achieved
and again the second one resonates, but mostly with my Ego.

It May be that we are always Realized and the Achievement is always Present.
or that neither is really ever attainable, because we are constantly expanding and experiencing,
I like the second theory, because it gives me the opportunity to just chill out and "let it be".

I've gone and done it again... My friends are no longer surprised, they are expectant and probably are mildly entertained by where and what I will come up with next.
I have wandered away from my Tropical Sunshine Paradise, to ......LA ???
What is definite is that this Path I am walking is all about the Transformation of this personality Stacy Lynn Floyd... It is about the transformation of Humanity.

The Goal is to sustainably focus the consciousness of ny Multi- Lifetimes-Karmic Third Dimension Repeat Offender to a Divine Being expressing Life through her Human ness expanding!
And to continue the awakening and expand it throughout the knowing that all of ME is related to all of YOU, we are all One Divine Presence, Minding multiple dimensional life experiences.
Wow! that's a pretty groovy purpose.

What I hear and what I am experiencing is this... moving into this state of conscious awareness will elevate my spiritual self from the excruciating suffering of karma, scarcity, fear, pain and self sabotage, which I have mastered in my forgetful human form. :)
To remembering and mastering my true Divine Presence that is Spirit-energy first, abundant, unified with all there is, possessing limitless potential, and pure LOVE.

Now to achieve this, I must really get down and dirty with Tending to my businesses of living Here and Now.
And this my friends is Not always easy. For I must:
1. Step for a moment back into the past to revisit all that yummy karmic programming and reruns. Bring them into awareness, release then... And re program.
2. Step up and into my personal Responsibility of being here at this present moment, and all that has ever transpired before, NOW and what I may create in the future.
3. Forgive myself for endless cycles and loops of unconscious blundering and ignorance. Forgive myself for letting my mind and ego run a muck.
4. Forgive myself for allowing other (people) get all up in my Business, to the point, I forgot how to listen to my own guidance.
5. Forgive myself for blaming other (people) for when their advice, backfired, because I didn't listen to my own guidance.
6. Love All the layers of me.
7. Remember at every moment I AM A DIVINE BEING, HAVING A HUMAN EXPERIENCE.
8. Mind my own business
9. Mind my own business
10. Did I say, Mind my own business.

There is a lot to be said about Unity Consciousness... I say that if it does not exist within... how can you ever be Aware of it... it doesn't feel like it is outside of me...
Emphatically, I feel the pain of everything...
Especially in a City with the density of millions of projections of Self, in nature, in flesh, in spirit...
transforming, expanding...
I say "get it together inside girl" so you can project the unity throughout

Integrating the "as above, so below"... feels about right...
For now I'm going to run with that!
let us anchor the light